Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Take a look ahead!

I've been really stuck in my head. I've written a couple of posts to put up here and then decided they were stupid. Not that I'm saying this one isn't stupid. I just decided it was high time I put SOMETHING up here.

I've been writing, gardening, writing, writing, running and writing. And eating and sleeping (when J isn't keeping me awake by driving imaginary trucks in his sleep) a little too. This lifestyle doesn't really make for the most exciting of blog posts, but I have to tell you, I freaking love my life.

My editor is incredible. She gets my main character and what I want this book to be. She's brilliant, and I am learning so much from working with her suggestions. I'm in awe. It is such a gift to be working with her. And to be working with my agent, who really goes above and beyond in terms of providing me with support and structure in this process. Being able to work with them, and being able to work with these characters and this story on this level is such a gift.

It doesn't always hit me that it's real. I'll trudge along, doing the work I need to do, but then I'll have a moment where I'll actually think, "Holy crap! My book is coming out next year!" And then I usually start crying, because I'm a big old baby.

Okay, since you're probably busy getting sick over all my sappiness, this is the part of the post where I'll make an abrupt shift and start complaining.

The marathon training schedule is not so much good on the fat burning. In fact, I found I was getting bigger. I wasn't losing or gaining weight, but my legs were getting huge. Yeah, I know. I should have known this. And I told myself (and maybe you) that I wasn't doing this to lose weight, but it's discouraging to be running 14 or 15 miles a week and have your jeans fit exactly the same way they did before. It's not that that I feel like I look particularly bad. It's just that I feel like I'm making a big change, and I want to see it.

I was going to stick it out to the ten mile point and then start working on speed and fat burning, but you know what? I never had any plans to actually run a marathon. I do, however, have plans to get my book jacket photo taken at some point in the not-so-distant future, and it would be really cool if I felt like I looked my best. So, I'm going to work on fat burning and muscle toning. I'm going to knock out the ten pounds I've been a little too comfortable with for the past couple of years, and then I'll go back to trying to run distances (which may actually be easier when I'm not carrying an extra ten pounds with me).

I'm not quitting. Just adjusting.

Oh, and in news that is only somewhat related. Yesterday, the awesomest sweatshirt in the history of sweatshirts arrived.

Behold!

9 comments:

Kirsten said...

That, IS an awesome sweatshirt!

Mickey said...

Holy crap! That IS the best sweathshirt ever!

And your life is pretty sweet. Running and writing. You could surely do without the nocturnal truck driving, but nobody's perfect.

Dingo said...

Not quitting, but adjusting. I think that's a great attitude. So many times our goals shift and it requires us to adjust our expectations and focus. It so often feels like quitting, but you've put it in perspective -- it's adjusting.

Reluctant Blogger said...

You sound just like me - well, except I am not a successful novelist.

But I can't seem to write - except about not being able to write! And I have 10 pounds to lose which has not gone through running and now my back has gone I will probably pile on yet more pounds. Grhh

Glad your life is good. Mine is too - or it was till my back went. Stupid back!

Corinne said...

10 lbs?! 10 lbs?! You're crazy. Last time I saw you I thought, geesh, wish I had a bod like Al's (not in a weird way, in an admiring way)...I understand though, I've been trying to get off more than 10 lbs over the past 6 months and nothing has budged, so I decided to sign up with a trainer and I have some major goals to accomplish over the next two months!

Anyway, keep writing in this blog because I LOVE it!

xoxo

Vanessa said...

Sometimes goals are like that, we keep working at it day after day and before we realize we wake up one morning and realize we're there.

Also? Awesome sweatshirt!

Courtney said...

I'm glad you have such awesome people to help you through the book publishing process. I can't wait to read it!

If you have a book release party next year, I'm coming and I'm wearing that sweatshirt.

David said...

Holy. Awesome. Sweatshirt. Where did you find that beauty??

The Modern Gal said...

I would love for my life to be that right now! Getting your book published really is amazing and such a big deal.

And I bet your legs look great, no matter what you think.

Also, that really is a fantastic sweatshirt. I think you should wear it for your book cover photo.